Harakiri for the Sky
Scorched Earth

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• 1. Heal Me (07:37)
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  Dear desolation:
  I wasn’t myself for months and nobody noticed
  I wasn’t myself for years and nobody cared
  But when the past isn’t dead, is it even the past?
  When the past is still alive, how can it ever be forgotten?!
  
  I always thought I’d heal one day
  Seems I never did, I never will
  Seems we live in the wrong time
  For kids with a pure heart
  But in the dark times
  Will there still be singing?
  Or will we just sing then
  About the dark times?
  
  Then I talk to myself at night
  Another Lorazepam and Coke fight
  My mind is begging for sleep
  My heart begging for rest, so deep
  
  Am I dying?
  “Just a little…”
  Is it blissful?
  “It’s like a dream…”
  I want to dream
  
  You won’t find healing
  At the feet of those who broke you
  We won’t find healing
  As long as we still miss the people…
  …we once used to be…
  
  If I’d had to describe my life
  In just eight simple words
  Fuck, I’d just say:
  All I was afraid of happening, it happened…
  
  So I chose not to choose life
  Seems I chose something else
  I’ve been alive way too long
  And dead way longer than that
  I woke up tired a few years ago
  And never really recovered since
  Just like a walk towards death
  But with grace in heart and flowers in hands
  Just like a walk towards death
  But with grace in heart and flowers in hands
  
  “Hurry up, you are dreaming!”
  Everything not saved will be lost…
  “Hurry up, you are retreating!”
  Fall into distance, grey upon grey…
  
  I woke up tired a few years ago
  And never really recovered since
  Just like a walk - towards death
  Be the void you wanna see in the world
• 2. Keep Me Longing (10:40)
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  Don’t give up my dear
  We built this road together
  My heart starts breaking
  But together we will fall
  Don’t give up my dear
  As lonely nights keep holding you tight
  Forget we’ve ever parted
  Forget we’ll never come back home
  
  And so I thought nothing could keep us apart
  And if something did, I didn’t think it’d be you
  And then I came back to the place we first met
  I could hear my heart breaking
  And I hope yours will too one day
  
  Don’t give up my dear
  Our dreams of endless summers
  You try to disappear
  But just want to be found
  Don’t give up my dear
  As my heart still beats your name
  Loving you was like going to war
  I never came back home the same
  
  Perhaps it was too little, too late
  We were already too broken, too hurt
  But I want to thank you for a thousand kisses
  That I can still feel on my face
  I thought I had forgotten all about you
  But here I am, calling your name again
  You still live inside of me
  And I’m cursed to carry you, wherever I go
  
  Maybe someday we’ll be two people
  Meeting again for the very first time
  Time has taught us we’ve always been strangers
  But in another life I’m sure I’d make you stay
  …at least another night…
  …another day…
  
  I tried so hard to save you
  I tried so hard to save me
  Save us from the maelstrom of time
  Save us from the great cold nothing
  
  Then all the love has been forgotten
  In times of furor and fear
  May you find peace now
  As well as me
  These nights were ours, but I failed you
  Our “almost” will always haunt my dreams
• 3. Without You I'm Just a Sad Song (10:03)
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  I don't know what I'm supposed to do
  Always haunted by the ghost of you
  Take me back to the night we have met
  'Cause without you I'm just a sad song
  
  I'm waiting for someone and can't remember who
  But there's a hole in my heart shaped just like you
  You've drawn memories in my mind that I can never replace
  You've painted colors in my heart which I can never erase
  
  So I became my own ghost still haunting these walls
  Always chased by the memoriеs I loved the most
  I would have takеn your love to the grave
  But maybe we were just meant to meet and not to be
  
  My only regret in life is I never told you how I feel
  And I wish we were back home, I'd still be holding your hand
  'Cause like sunlight, like sunset we first appear then disappear
  So important to someone, but we were just passing through
  You'll always be my favourite ghost
  
  I hoard memories that haunt me
  I collect scars that spear my dreams
  And little do you know, how I break while I sleep
  Little do you know, how much I want to disappear
  
  It's this day of the year again
  So many years have already passed
  It's so strange how the world has changed
  Even though we never did, we never will...
  
  I don't know what I'm supposed to do
  Always haunted by the ghost of you
  Take me back to the night we have met
  'Cause without you, I'm just a sad song
  Without you, I'm just a sad song
  
  There's no one that can teach me to forget
  I thought I'd die in your arms one night
  Please one more kiss, one last hug
  Under the stars, before we turn off the light
  
  Maybe we found forever
  At the wrong time
  Couldn't put us back together
  And never will
  I wasn't yet finished loving you
  Maybe I never will
  But in the space of my chest
  My heart still beats your name
• 4. No Graves but the Sea (08:01)
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  I loved to walk barefoot on the shores
  Just to feel the coarse sand between my toes
  To hear the waves crushing and roar
  And to hear the ocean calling my name
  Calling me home
  
  Raise your glass to the ones we loved
  For whom we cried at night
  For those who left this place too early
  In my dreams, I hold you tight
  Raise your glass to the ones we loved
  For whom we cried at night
  I'll see you on the other side
  Where shadows reach for light
  
  For what wе’ve lost like-a you and me
  It's always oursеlves we'll find in the sea
  To the pain of pure hearts
  Bleak skies and the sea
  To the mountains and tides
  As they fall, so do we
  
  No man steps in the same river twice
  For it’s a different river, a different man
  But through him flows the river of time
  And the time shared becomes a memory or a scar
  
  I love to feel the bare stones between my hands
  To gasp and fill my lungs with cold air
  To sense the wind, not breaking young hearts, but branches
  To hear the mountains now and then calling my name
  Finally calling me home
  
  And now as I stand here in the clouds
  It starts hurting a little less
  Since I know I'm not alone anymore
  Since I know I'm gonna sleep through this storm
  
  Drink with me to the days gone by
  Drink with me to the days gone by
  Drink with me to the days gone by
  And the life that used to be
  Drink with me to the days gone by
  To the life we used to live
  
  Father ocean, oh, Mother sea
  Come, Lady Death, and wear your crown
  'Cause the sea's words were always more honest
  Speaking to those willing to drown
  
  For what we've lost like-a you and me
  It's always ourselves we'll find in the sea
  To the pain of pure hearts
  Bleak skies and the sea
  To the mountains and tides
  As they fall, so do we
• 5. With Autumn I'll Surrender (08:39)
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  As autumn sets fire to days
  We can no longer hold on
  We are burning in water
  Steadily drowning in flames
  While in my dreams we’re still roaming
  Through these fields together
  In my dreams it’s still young love
  Yearning for forever
  
  Like the last days of a suicide kid
  Borrowing happiness from tomorrow
  Still and always craving for summer
  But for a summer so many years ago
  
  Those who got outcast from their hometown
  Will burn it down to roughly feel its warmth
  Like a fire-theft in times of peace
  Now break my heart and take your piece
  
  …oh what a flammable heart I’ve been given…
  
  Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey
  And fuck, that’s just fine, cause it was never meant for them
  Cause the eyes, useless when the mind is blind
  And by the time we learn to live, it may already be too late
  
  Maybe you think that I got thorns on my tongue
  Cause of the words that I said or the way I spoke
  But my heart was just growing roses
  My heart was always searching for a place in the sun
  
  Cause some days I’m the “Starry Night”
  Then other days I’m the suicide letter
  And I keep on craving for summer
  But for a summer many years ago
  And so I became who I always hated
  And my life, worth one more tragedy
  And so I destroyed everything
  And turned my back on the world
  
  …blame it on my wild heart…
  
  It’s a walk among tombstones
  Everyone I loved left or died
  Death still conducts, still sings our songs
  And this poem of life ended with a scream
• 6. I Was Just Another Promise You Couldn't Keep (09:01)
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  What if you were but a gift
  To my estranged and miserable heart
  Would you guide me back to times of grace?
  Where I felt sheltered, where I still felt alive?!
  
  You were the most important chapter
  In the book of my life
  You were the summit
  I was almost there
  But now my heart is broken
  And yours seem broken too
  Don't promise me forever
  If you never meant to
  
  You gave up on me
  Way easier I gave up on myself
  You forgot me so quickly
  I'm pretty sure you never cared
  But the past is like an anchor
  The past's the greatest fall-apart
  A hole filled with gunpowder in my chest
  Where once, once was a heart
  
  And you will search for me
  In the arms of another stranger
  You will search for me
  Not eventually, that's a fucking promise
  
  So when did we lose sight?
  Fuck, we used to be so close
  And now you became
  The main source of my pain
  And I don't know how to live on
  Or make it go away
  And I don't know how to live on
  Or make it go away
  
  I wanna be the pain in your paintings
  I wanna be the tempest in your words
  I wanna be young love, too vague to insist
  I wanna be your poem of solitude and grief
  
  You were the most important chapter
  In the book of my life
  You were the summit
  I was almost there
  
  You gave up on me
  Way easier I gave up on myself
  You forgot me so quickly
  I'm pretty sure you never cared
  But the past is like an anchor
  The greatest fall- apart
  A hole filled with gunpowder in my chest
  Where once was a heart
  
  Just once I'd like to be the poem
  And not again its fucking poet
  I was just another promise you couldn't keep
  Burn everything that bears my name
  
  Cause nothing will ever be louder
  Than the silence between two people
  That once pretended to love each other
  And were ready to see the world burn
• 7. Too Late for Goodbyes (07:53)
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  Maybe I'm going to kill myself by pretending I'm ok?!
  But die a little every fucking single day?!
  Love betrays and kills and I found out the hardest way
  Cause a thousand years in the water couldn't wash your name away
  
  My pain I mainly chose myself
  I'm so heartsick I could die
  Love and death are just beautiful lies
  I never knew how to say goodbye
  
  I like melodies that just tell me sad things
  Songs of loss, yet resisting its cold
  But as soon as you grow up your heart dies
  So never grow up, never grow old
  
  I like melodies that just tell me sad things
  Songs of loss, yet resisting its cold
  But as soon as you grow up your heart dies
  So never grow up, never grow old
  
  I'm a piece of all the places I've been
  I'm so homesick I could die
  Love and death are just beautiful lies
  I still think we deserved a better goodbye
  A better goodbye
  
  Now after all these empty days and sleepless nights
  I still drown in silence, still drown in the void
  But death created time and time created death
  Death is the crown of all, let her reign our hearts tonight
  
  What a loss to spend so much time
  With someone just to find out she's a stranger
  In the end it seems we both lost something
  You lost me, while I lost trust and time
  
  And now after all this agony, agony and heartbreak
  I still drown in anguish, still perish from grief
  It's pretty easy to see the beginning of things
  But way harder to see their end
  
  Cause I remember with painful clarity
  When we began for me
  But can't lay my finger
  On the moment of our end
  
  I'm sorry the void once more engulfed me
  But somehow I guess, I myself became the void
  I'm leaving soon...
  Sorry I can't save myself...
  
  (Myself, myself, myself, I can't save myself)
  (Myself, myself, I can't save myself)
  (Myself, myself, I can't save myself)
  (Myself, myself, myself)
• 8. Street Spirit (Fade Out) (Radiohead cover) (05:35)
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  Rows of houses all bearing down on me
  I can feel their blue hands touching me
  All these things into position
  All these things we'll one day swallow whole
  And fade out again and fade out
  This machine will, will not communicate
  These thoughts and the strain I am under
  Be a world child, form a circle
  Before we all go under
  And fade out again
  And fade out again
  Cracked eggs, dead birds
  Scream as they fight for life
  I can feel death, can see its beady eyes
  All these things into position
  All these things we'll one day swallow whole
  And fade out again
  And fade out again
  Immerse your soul in love
  Immerse your soul in love
Durée: 01:07:29